Tag Archive | me

– home –

take me
to a place where
I can be free
I can be me
take me?
should I
take myself, should I
make this place
the one
I dream of?
it’s in my hands
in my power
in my mind
the stenght
the way to
find it
make it.


17 October 2017

Palavras | Words

Ando a sentir necessidade de escrever. Como se tivesse alguma coisa cá dentro a querer sair. Como se fosse esse o propósito de por aqui andar neste planeta, o meu desígnio.
Depois, acontece a vida. Trabalho, contas para pagar, família, amigos, hobbies e coisas que gosto de fazer e que me dão alegria, o simplesmente ficar a vegetar no fim-de-semana e recarregar as baterias, desligando o cérebro.
Como equilibrar esta necessidade que tenho, tão visceral, com o meu dom inato para a inactividade? Como fazer esse amor ardente pelas palavras ser mais forte que o cansaço e a preguiça e -A INTERNET- ?

Estou melhor em vários aspectos…agora conseguir fazer de algo que me move
de dentro para fora ser algo que me permita viver de alguma forma…como?
Um passo de cada vez, não é? Vamos aos poucos, um dia lá chegarei!

I’ve been feeling the need to write. Like I have something inside wanting to get out. As if that was the purpose of me being around on this planet, my design.
Then, life happens. Work, bills to pay, family, friends, hobbies and things I like and that give me joy, the plain and simple ‘couch-potatoing’ over the weekend, recharging batteries and turning my brain off.
How to  balance this need I have, so visceral, with in born gift to do nothing at all? How to make this ardent love for words be stronger than being tired and laziness and – THE INTERNET- ?

I am better in many aspects…now to achieve being able to do something
that moves me from the inside out as a means of living somehow…and how?
One step at a time, right? Bit by bit we go, I’ll get there someday!

Poesia FIB

Um blog que sigo, o Learning to Live like Water, apresentou-me esta forma de poesia: os FIB. Poemas com base na Sequência Fibonacci, que ditará o número de sílabas ou palavras em cada verso. Achei interessante, pois os números de Fibonacci fascinam-me, especialmente pela sua presença na Natureza lado a lado com a Proporção Áurea. Mas…isso serão temas para outras escritas, quem sabe!

De momento, quero partilhar convosco as minhas experiências neste formato de poesia que me intrigou. Tentei fazer FIB com sílabas métricas e palavras, chegando mesmo a fazer um ou outro com inversão dos números (limitei-me ao 5 e foi daí para trás); qual acham que funciona melhor?

procurando respostas
chegam mais dúvidas
não sei parar de pensar.
– 28.03.2017-
(fibonacci de palavras)

tantos caminhos abertos
tantas opções
– 28.03.2017 –
(fibonacci de palavras, em ordem inversa)

ser plena
ser capaz finalmente
saber que quero e como!
– 28.03.2017 –
(fibonacci de palavras)

enfim eu,
plena de questões.
– 28.03.2017 –
(fibonacci de sílabas métricas)

tantas paixões me assolam assim
tantas ânsias enfim
querer mais
– 28.03.2017 –
(fibonacci de palavras, em ordem inversa)

Bem, agora fiquei com vontade de voltar aos poemas, de voltar a tentar haiku… veremos o que sai daqui!

IberAnime! Lx 2017 – An experience! (now with videos)

Last Saturday I went to IberAnime! Lx, 2017 edition, which took place at MEO Arena (Lisboa, Portugal) on the 6th and 7th of May. also happening was 4Gamers, featuring international gaming brands and some national game developers.
This was my second experience in events like this and the first time ever I ventured into doing a sort of poorly put together cosplay (yes, I will put up photos, rest assured you will be able to laugh).

Thanks to having been invited by my friend João (you can find him here, on Facebook and here, on YouTube), I decided to go along his plan to go to an evento gathering many of the things I like: anime, manga and comics, japanese culture, games, technology, fandoms and geekness (lots of that!) and, of course, truckloads of merchandise! The invite had a condition atteched to it that João only told me after the tickets were bought: he was cosplaying e I was supposed to do some cosplay too… me of all people, who after years of suffering for Carnaval and, even though loving Halloween, can only be bullyied into dressing up in costume for a party! But, with his enthusiasm (and pleading, hihi), I agreed to doing something that didn’t make me feel completely ridiculous or totally bankrupt – considering DIY and sewing are not my strong skills (I shall learn).

Tokyo Ghoul João and Pokémon Go trainer Sónia, all ready, off we went to IA! Lx2017. There, we saw some interesting cosplays, inspired and well-achieved, representing current and past animes, movies and TV shows (including a Doctor, which made me go into hyper fangirling, and a Ruby Rose, from Rooster Teeth ‘s RWBY).

After a good 10 minutes on the phone trying to find each other, we finally met with the guys from Próximo Nível, THE Mr. Remedy and also Hermy from Hermylution! From there onwards, exploring the venue was even more filled with laughs and it was fascinating to go on observing these YouTubers working to bring you interesting videos about the event.
We went throught the merchandise booths, filled with cute and awesome stuff we all wanted to just take home; we saw everything and everyone; went on to explore the 4Gamers space, specially the Retrogaming area, which was really nice and had some relics (including an NGage, that mythical mobile phone/console made by Nokia lol).

That all happening, we were reminded that the final round of the world cosplay competition, the WCS, was happening. There we went, João and I, to see what competition level cosplaying is all about: Tejo room was reserved for this purpose and it was full, so the images we got were captured from afar (hence the slightly inferior quality). Victory went to a cosplay of The Hound from Game of Thrones, with an amazing 2nd place going to a beautifully made cosplay of Princess Zelda (twilight Princess) – and Portugal was represented in a faithful presentation of Anna from Forzen (those dresses were AMAZING!)

A last tour around the venue brought us to some stuff we hadn’t seen yet, including a Wrestling area, from a Lisbon Academy, CTW.

My thoughts? Taking into account the size of the portuguese market and the slice of the population that will currently be prone to be attracted to this kind of event, the turn-up seems high. This market dimension factor also bleeds into some limitations to what can be done and who can be brought to the event, budget-wise; still, all different areas achieved good representation.
I don’t think having 4Gamers as a separate event (and paid separately, too) in the same venue was ideal, particularly when it came to circulation; placement of the developers’, retrogaming’s and Youtubers’ areas was not ideal, forcing people to long walks in infinite hidden stairways – which were also needed to access all different areas set up in the Arena. Constrains of the venue itself, truth be told; there is always room for improvement – at least the air was circulating well enough and it wasn’t stifling hot inside!
I must confess that I only found the board games area by accident, while looking for the back exit of the venue, by the end of the day. It deserved more attention, perhaps better signaling of the different areas.

In conclusion: it was a day well spent with friends, that allowed me to release my inner geek and have fangirling moments without feeling ridiculous (the best in these events, there is no shaming about loving something and expressing it!) There is room for improvement, of course, in particular when it comes to the arrangment of the different areas and accesses – I believe the the FIL venue could be more appropriate for this kind of event, as I saw in the 2015’s edition of Lisboa Games Week; the audience has a tendency for growth, since many anime and pop/geek culture fans are now reaching ages of movement and financial autonomy, which gives this event the opportunity to expand and encompass a more international participation in presences and pannels (I do wish there were more of those and also less scattered). In general, I liked the people and the community feeling of it, there was a bit of everything for everyone (Reiki, japanese culture, calligraphy, language lessons, etc.). I might return, who knows.

Next adventure, ComicCon Portugal?

Here are some pictures of our day (there will be videos on the YouTube channels I mentioned, links will be available here ASAP):

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IberAnime!Lx 2017 – Uma experiência! (agora com vídeos!)

Productive weekend

Been a nice couple of days, this weekend. I got a lot of stuff sorted out, from my papers, finance and clothes; I wrote, I crocheted, I read, I cooked and cleaned; I made sense of all electronics and cables I had lying around.
I had some fun times with my guy, got a phone call from a good friend from my home town, a visit from my bestie that lives across the street (sort of), I watched some good shows.

I am feeling generally well and good about myself, even though I feel lazy and wish the weekend had an extra day – in between Saturday and Sunday, for instance. On the other hand, I feel the urge to get things done; like planning out some blogging, writing some more on my stories – sorting out the structure to my JAFF project and getting it going, letting my curiosity about photography develop, etc. Many things.

Another thing I started doing this week, which I expect to keep up throughout the year and into the future, was practicing writing with my non-dominant hand. I think it will be an interesting exercise for my brain, as well as the meditation I have been trying to make a habit of mine (I have been slacking out a bit, especially on weekends, but I intend to keep on doing my 10 minutes during either my morning or evening commute).

I am also getting back to my physical exercise, rejoining yoga classes next Tuesday after a couple of months that I was unable to attend – in which I actually noticed the difference with the absence of this routine I was developing.

A few more plans for the upcoming year, hopefully to continue beyond that, that I’ll share as it goes along. Let’s hope this momentum I have keeps up!

How about you guys, how has this first week of the year been?


10 dias de Mindfulness para um Fim de Ano sereno X

Dia 10 – conclusão de ciclo.

O planeado para meditar antes da passagem de ano. Eram 23:45 quando abri a aplicação e seleccionei o dia 10. Estava sentada confortavelmente e tudo indicava que ia correr muito bem.

Conseguem adivinhar o que aconteceu? Não? Adormeci. Isso mesmo: a-dor-me-ci. Quando acordei, eram 00:03 e tinha o meu namorado a entrar no quarto para me dar o beijinho de Ano Novo.

Que palermice, adormecer assim…Acho que relaxei demais, o vinho do jantar deve ter ajudado!

Portanto, o dia 10 foi repetido à semelhança do dia 9. Durante a manhã de dia 1 de Janeiro, para começar bem o ano!

Foi muito bom, mais fácil que nas primeiras vezes. Vou certamente continuar a praticar pelo menos estes 10 minutos diários, quero fazer disto um hábito regular (olha, acho que tenho aqui uma resolução de início de ano, que tal?). Tem-me feito bem e creio que vou aprender muito sobre mim e crescer em mim com esta prática.

E então, já estão convencidos a experimentar? Já meditam, ficaram curiosos? Contem tudo, quero saber o que acharam destes 10 (12, para dizer a verdade) dias que fui partilhando convosco.

Feliz dia 1; feliz Janeiro, feliz 2017!