Archive | July 2016

Questões interiores | Inside questions

Sabem aqueles dias assim…desesperantes?
 
Não que aconteça algo de mau ou que haja stress, dias que são perfeitamente normais até…mas que uma parte de ti, lá dentro, se vai questionando “aguento mais aproximadamente 50 anos disto?” e nem sabes responder…
 
50 x 365 = 18250… são muitos dias… são tantos dias…
You know those days that just feel like…despair?
Not that something bad happened or not that there’s some stress; days that are perfectly normal, even…but some part of you, inside, questions itself “can I take it, another 50 years or so of this?” and you don’t even know how to answer that…
50 x 365 = 18250… that is a lot of days… it’s so many days…
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Been away… but now I’m back!

As you might have noticed, I was absent for a couple of weeks. There are several reasons for that, of course.

One, workload. Not that I have an immense workload, but my bosses have these periods when they demand anything and everything of me – at the same time. These past two weeks were a bit like that.

Two, a need for some soul-searching. Though I love my job, doing all these secretary and receptionist things (except maybe telephone calls – telephone calls are hell, I hate them!), I have been feeling a bit…stagnated, perhaps. I have been struggling to find meaning in my work and been longing to find that exact work that could fullfil that need of mine.

Three, the intense heat. It has been hot as peppers around here and that, of course, subdues most of my productive juices into a languid lump of lazy me. I love Summer, I love the heat – but I know it makes me be lazier than usual, even with things I love.

writing-923882_960_720Four, a bit of writers block. Associate with point 2. Feeling lost and useless in the world tends to drain my ability to write – even though the inspiration is as fervent as ever or more!
It’s that depressing feeling of not being productive to the world, feeling that everything you do has no meaning and in no way contributes to the betterment of the world – it kind of stops you dead in your tracks with everything you do – wether it is something you really love doing or not.

Five, taking some time for other things. Like my Reiki traireiki-principles.190154340_std.jpgning – which I have been slacking off quite a lot. Decided to focus more on it – and, associated with it, my meditation practice. That also means I decided to work on myself, in an honest manner. Inner work to grow my being and feel fullfilled. Along with this, I decided to take my volunteering to write for the Portuguese Reiki Association blog more seriously – hence not writing so much here (I have to tell you, writing the covering of an event from almost 2 weeks ago has been hell).

Six, and last (but not least): gaming. Yes, the addiction is there and I have been indulging – most certainly Brave Exviusbecause of how I’ve been feeling about my life. So, what have I been playing? As I showed you in my previous post, Final Fantasy Brave Exvius on my phone, alongside Final Fantasy X, remastered, on the PS3 (revivalism, I so love that game – maybe because it was my first Final Fantasy!).

Also on the phone…the unavoidable Pokémon GO! I am now taking nice walks,by myself and with my guy once in a while, which has helped improve my mood and also has gotten me pokemon-go-live-in-japan-for-field-test_kj4d.640to do some exercise! It is such a thrill and I feel so childish and happy while searching for new pokemons for my collection! With all due precautions, of course.

 

So, that’s been my last two weeks…what about yours?
(And do you have any advice for me, concerning the dillemas I presented you in this little confession of mine?)

Love and light,

Rell

O Estado do Mundo. Estado de Sítio?

Cada vez que abro uma newsletter de algum dos jornais que tenho subscritas ou abro uma rede social para ver o que se passa com as pessoas à boa laia de voyeur, assusto-me.

Metade dos destaques da newsletter do Observador que acabei de receber fazem-me parar de respirar uns instantes enquanto uma boa parte de mim fica dormente com a loucura e a violência que assolam o mundo um pouco por toda a parte, todos os dias, cada vez mais.

Reféns numa igreja em França, degolações e sabe-se lá mais o quê. França tem sido um alvo preferido de situações de terrorismo e violência sem sentido neste ano insano que estamos a viver.

Logo atrás, especialmente nos últimos dias, a Alemanha tem vindo à ribalta em situações de violência, ataques sem sentido a cidadãos que apenas querem seguir com o seu quotidiano: tiroteio em Berlimbombista suicida em Ansbach e o caos instalado na vida das pessoas comuns.

A surpresa do dia para mim (mais que as outras, pois chega um ponto que começamos a ficar dessensibilizados a estas coisas no sentido de nos chocarmos – isto porque agora todo o bendito dia há pelo menos um), foi esta: tiroteio em centro comercial na Suécia. Quantas vezes nos chegam notícias destas dos países escandinavos? Once in a blue moon, como dizem os nossos amigos anglo-saxões. Pois a blue moon chegou lá, parece, às terras do Sol da Meia-Noite.

Não posso deixar de assinalar igualmente o sucedido na Somália, onde explosões se fizeram sentir na cidade capital. Treze mortos (pelo menos) na explosão junto ao aeroporto e um bombista suicida nas proximidades das instalações das Nações Unidas que tiraram a vida a pelo menos 10 pessoas.

Haverá vontade de viver num mundo assim? Constantemente em medo de quando será a nossa vez? Temos sorte, aqui no nosso Portugal, onde temos estado sossegadinhos. Mas até quando?
É urgente fazer-se algo. Mas mais do mesmo, será solução? Esta sociedade está podre e já não serve o seu propósito – é preciso uma enorme mudança de paradigma, mais humanista, mais uno, mais sincero e livre de subterfúgios… sei lá! É desesperante…vou ali enterrar a cabeça na areia, porque não quero mais ver isto, como a maioria das pessoas faz – e com esta atitude nada muda e só piorará. Mas também o que poderemos nós fazer? Já não sei, já não sei; vou ali ser criança, brincar com o Principezinho um bocadinho e os adultos idiotas que nos entregam um mundo destes que se amanhem.

(desculpem, é uma desesperança…nem sei que pensar!)

So… I’ve been gaming!

So, this week I went to Google Play and found this game:
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Have been playing quite a lot since installing and am definitely liking it! Might even get a bit addicted, I missed playing Final Fantasy anything!

Funny that I ended up with this when I was originally searching for Pokemon Go – which unfortunately is not available in my country yet ( though I hear rumours of some apk going around and working, the servers are just going nuts).
I have obtained said apk but haven’t been able to get in the game itself just yet, as it seems the servers have been down or some measures against cheating have been put in place. Still, I hear there’s a gym right next to the place where I work, as well as other interesting stuff – and a co-worker caught 2 zubats, 1 charmander and a pikachu in the vicinity of our office!
Can’t wait to be able to try it!

What about you guys?
What are your thoughts on this new Pokemon release?
What are you playing this weekeend?